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ah i dont want tomorrow to happen.

my grandad's birthday. 12th Febuary..
R.I.P. grandad. i will never forget you.
i love and miss you so much. (L)
ah my god, im crying :\.

god i really just wanna stay in bed all day tomorrow. my mum's gonna be crying her eyes out, merrrrr suck my hairy toe you cunts >.<

im just gonna stay in bed all day and text my baby <3
he makes me happy so :).
ah grandad why did you have to die :\ why you D;
i miss you so much i would give anything just to hear your voice again (L).

ah anywayss...


ima have to look on the bright side of life right :\?
my bedroom is getting decorated (Y).

and im seeing my baby on sunday..
its not alll bad....

god i would change so much of my life if i had three wishes. they would be so helpful right now-

R.I.P. grandad i love and miss you so much. noone will ever forget you, and how you used to read whinnie the pooh to me every night when you babysitted me and my brother. :') and how me and calvin used to fight all the time and you would always stick up for me(L')
noone can ever replace you. EVER.
i had a dream the other night actually.....

about... i killed myself to see you again :$.
and for some reason they wouldnt let me in heaven, where you are.... so i was like >.<
and i got my phyco daddy to come up the stairs to heaven and kill those mother fuckers so me and you and my dad was all in heaven.. and then i cant remember the rest :\
ah if i could say one thing i would say sorry for being such a bitch to you when i was younger.
i tell everyone to take advantage of their grandad.. cos im lost without you grandad.
you dont realise how much i've cried over you(F)
and the worse part of all of this is....

the last thing i remember you as..
is you we're babysitting me and calvin.
and you was watching umm whatsitcalled.... the one with anne robinson? WEAKEST LINK thats it .. you was watching that.
and we was being little buggers >.<
and we was running down the stairs at like whatever time it was? but we was running down the stairs.
and you was like 'please kids. i have a headache. please go to bed'
and we was like laughing and making loads of noise :\.
and we was throwing stuff around :|

and i feel sooo fucking guilty :\
about all of that.

mmm :\


this is depressing me D;

laters on...